Consciousness is birthed into form, with a veil of forgetfulness forming a barrier to the memory of time before. The blind embark on a journey with uncertainty. Challenges confront. The way is lost. Or so it appears. But Spirit is in control – though truth has been labeled myth and theory labeled fact, though we have been stripped of knowledge and have been fooled by the false prophets of belief – everything is as it should be.
Collectively we are learning. Even in our fallen and dismembered state, delusion gifts the lesson of discontentment. Ever, the seed that gestates within seeks union. An awakening is at hand. Slowly one begins to recall that which they already are. Clues emerge and gradually cross-correlate with one another to present a larger picture. Pieces are put together through diligent seeking; the unexplainable rushes in. Synchronicity laughs in our face. Knowledge kicks down the door.
This journal is the account of my own remembering, a process in which the familiar world around me crumbled, revealing something so complex and so seemingly chaotic that at times I was convinced I had lost my mind. In truth, I was simply regaining it.
A Book of Re-Membering is a journal of self-discovery written during one man’s journey to find healing, learn of knowledge, and come to a place in life where he would truly know God. Though it is a deeply personal work, the book is a parable. As such, beneath the surface of the story is an even deeper story about the reader finding wisdom within themself.
The author of this unique work invites us to accompany him on a strange and intriguing journey – a journey in which he sets out to discover what many would consider to be ‘unknowable.’
Under the tutelage of the sacred South American ayahuasca plant, as well as a handful of other guides – plant, human, animal and non-corporeal alike – B.M.B. leads the reader down some of the curious roads and vestiges of his psyche, and by extension likewise invites his readers to ask some challenging questions regarding their own self-concepts and the nature of the universe in which they live.
This journal provides an unusual insight into the bizarre and often profound world of psychedelic experience, as well as a welcome reminder that entheogens are in fact serious spiritual tools, which, contrary to their reputation for recreational applications, are in the right hands a potent pathway to self-discovery.
The author takes us into a disquieting no man’s land wherein the experiencer is besought on all sides by egoic projections, doubt and delusion, and is left only with the strength of his own burgoening wisdom. to help him separate truth from illusion.
Above all, this story is one of a distinctly modern spiritual awakening, which offers readers a brief but intimate and compelling glimpse into the world of one seeker’s unique transformations.
B. Edrington Willowood
A Book of Re-Membering: Lessons in Death and Rebirth with Ayahuasca: : : An Overview, by B.M.B.
I had been studying with the sacred medicinal plant ayahuasca for a few years when during one ceremony I had an experience that changed my life. Though I had lived many visions previous to this point, and was cautious to believe things too quickly or literally (were the visions from the plant, Divinity, or my own ego?)... the nature of this vision was different. With my consciousness, I entered a self-less, formless state, merged with the awareness of Creator... and began to see and travel through time. After this I began to time-travel quite frequently – in ceremonies, dreams, and seemingly daily life. There were answers that I sought, but only more questions that I received. So much that I experienced was beyond the brain's hardwiring capabilities. Reality began to ooze, and the foundation I was standing on became quicksand.
Coinciding with this time was a peaking of spiritual battle that I had been engaged in for almost 20 years... since I began seeing shadow entities, or demons as commonly referred to. I held the view that as energetic parasites, they had been feeding on my mind-energy body, or aura, for many years. I could sense that after tremendous personal work, the permissions I had given them were being removed, and that I would soon be liberated. But rather than having their hold weakened, they seemed stronger. As my reality crumbled and my sensitivities increased, I found myself agitated by them continually.
I was driven on multiple fronts: discovering the mysteries, fighting shadow entities, learning of interdimensional extraterrestrial light beings (angels), and healing myself... until one day, the whole world coalesqued within me... and I did something on par of the most foolish deeds ever performed. I fought darkness with darkness. I wonder, if one wanted to kill the Devil... should they really use his very own sword?
The reprocussions were immediate and severe. Thinking about it gives me the chills, even now.
Following a 10 day period of not sleeping, lest I bleed in a dream and awaken to find blood on myself... I was neurotic. I was broken. I had hit 'rock bottom' and then dug six feet further. And then a miracle happened: darkness gave way to light. I found forgiveness within myself.
After that... everything changed.
This web site is a video blog that catalogs my personal growth as I weave together my passions for Turtle Island shamanism (traditions from Americas that work with spirits)... with that of Christness (teachings of love minus the dogma of "ianity"). The Twisted Hair lineage lives on.
I invite you to consider a shamanic healing session. These sessions are effective in healing emotional woundings stored throughout the body, releasing excess energies of the mind that result in unbalanced thought, cleansing/recalibrating the energy body/aura, removing negative energies from outside influences (be it a jealous friend or attached entity), and healing of physical disease, among many other things.
